hey

My life this week is rather shitty..its been in this continuous cycle of stress, procrastination, exhastion, yelling, and emotions. Let me explain y...

On sunday i was thinking about alot of stuff..how some of my friends are drifting away, how sometimes i feel my family sumtimes only see a short grade 9 and nothing but..so my mind kept me up till 1:30am, sdo i ended up sleeping in, which made me late for class, and which also made me extremly exhasted without the day, which made me procrastinate on my homework, which made my parenst yell at me, which made me stressed and go to bed late..and then the cycle started over again..but to add to that jessica is mad at me, as i mentioned before. I havent talked to her today..i think ill wait till tomorrow to talk to her. If she forgives me everything will be fine again(friends are the biggest part of my life rite now) if she doenst...my life is going to go down the shitter for a while..me and her have been friends for over half a year now, and i dont wanna throw away all those memories...

Anyways im going to get away from all that sadness for a while to discuss another one of my odd topics...Todays topic(lmao) is Being Optimistic vs Being Pesimistic I know this is an odd topic to be talking about, but for sum reason i was thinking about it walking to badmonton a while ago, so id thought id share my thougfhts with u guys anyways, i think that being optimistic is one of the best things u can be, because when u be optimistic to sumbody, u make them feel good, then they thank u for that, which makes U feel good thats y i try to be as optimistic as i can, because along with optimisim comes kindness, i love to be kind lol..but anywyas, with being pesimistic u make the other person feel bad, then they get mad at u, which makes u feel bad, so i think being pesimistic to other people can be a bad thing (being pesimistic to yourself is bad, but when u be pesimistic to others u usually get labelled a bitch or sumthing (ive seen it done many of times (and i dont even think the perosn doing it doesnt even mean to..) so yea. Usually with being pesimistic comes angry and sadness, to u or other people or both. And for everybody who hoestly  doenst understand what im trying to get at here, is that how u veiw things in life to u and other people mean so much..usually when u see the good in just about everything, u are a nicer person, and ur life goes better. When your pesimistic and can find the bad in just about everything, ur veiw on life is rather low and u feel bad and your life is in the shitter. Heres an exaple of it

Optimistic:

Friend: i got 90% on my math test!

Optimistic person: NICE JOB!!! im so proud of u!! thatll make ur average higher!!

Friend:

Pesimistic:

Friend: i got 90% on my math test!!

Pesimistiuc person: well u may have gotten good THIS time, but wait till the next unit, itll be alot harder and your average will decrease...

Friend:

So yea... im done writng about that now. I hoestly felt like a teacher or sumthing talking about sumthing no one really cares about lmao and i hoenstly dont really know Y i put that..but i dunno. I like to rite about topics people may or may not of even thoight about before..gets people thinking..lmao So i guess if u have anything to add to that u can post below..start up sum interesting convos well anywyas i gotta get going now so ttyl byebye!!

-Kristal