kristalstjean @ MindSay

well today was day 2 of semster 2..it was alot better in tech were doing a poster thingy which is cool in english it was very boring..were doing stuff about short stories and stuff..i honestly couldnt pay attention. Lunch was fun as always..i kept on saying fruit salad because of a video me and conan know lol. Geo was alrite..were doing maps and stuff so it wasnt too bad..besides on of my best friends is in there: sean. Science was good i sat beside deedre and jade today..i had work to but i didnt do much cause it was much more entertaining to talk to them lol besides i can just do it for homework which i perfer to do(ill explain y in a bit). So overall today was good day

Anyways i figure the less i hang around my parents the less arguing and insults and less emotional pain ill have. And i figure if i do my work first the less arguments ill have. I kinda laready knew this but i havent really tooken action till rite now..ive been pissed off so much lately..and with me anger turns into sadness and tears..so yea. Honestly id rather feel physical pain than emotional...i realized this a while ago and once i did i realized y sum people cut their wrists and such. Physical pain can go away pretty fast but emotional pian can stay forever. I guess thats just life for u. But thankfully school is part of my life..i love school. Its a place from home. Honestly im most happy when im with friends or at school. Its like home is hell and school is heaven.. in fact i wrote a poem about this last nite:

Heaven and Hell

Never a happy medium

Aways horrible pain

Or great joy

Its either heaven

Or hell

Never going onto supportive ground

Hell

So much anger

Too much pain

Yelling

Anger