I hate how my parents will take there anger out on me..my brother is in the hosital because he has something like strep throught, possibly mono, possibly an absess (sp?) in his throught. For the last few days theyve been taking there anger out on me constantly..yelling at me non stop for little things..usually nothing. I got in trouble yesterday morning for pushing in a chair..no lie. Pushing in a fucking chair. I had really baggy pj pants on so I was holding them up when I was pushing in a chair and my Dad starting yelling at me saying to stop "dragging it out" and get upstairs and get ready for school (I wasnt "dragging it out"at all..it was actually 40 minutes till I had to leave for school, and I just had fisnished breakfast..didnt even sit down for a minute in the chair to let it digest, just got up and pushed in a chair and I got yelled at.) Last night I finally had enough of that bullshit. I didnt eat supper yet and it was nearly 10pm and I was getting yelled at, so I got some spaggetti. I even got yelled at for that because I didn't have a porkchop with that! My dad said that I was going to wind up in the hospital because of that. Well I guess I can't do anything to please them can I! I dont get supper, I get yelled at. I get supper, I get yelled at, so I just started yelling back: "No matter what I do I can't seem to please you can I! I get supper, and I get yelled at STILL! Well, your just mad about Robert and your taking your anger out on me! Thanks! I feel sooo LOVED!" All while doing this I was walking out of the living room, up the stairs, into my bedroom, with a plate of spagetti in my hand, and slammed the door. I ate it, then while I was doing that, about 10 minutes later my mom came up and starting apologizing for my dad. Pfft..thats ridiculus. She can't apologize for dad because she does it to more than she thinks! The other day I was in a different argument with my parents so I stopped yelling and I didn't speak at all..like at all, even when they were trying to talk to me I didnt look at them or ignologe them because I didn't wnat to get in trouble for anytrhing I said. My mom then starting saying that I was stupid, irresponsibe and ignorant because I didnt do alot of chores aroud the house. Humm, well I also have to do homework, volunteer, go to school, and go to piano lessons. My mom dropped out of school in grade 10, she dosent have a job. She has to do laundry, cook, and clean the house. Thats about it. The rest of the time she drinks, smokes, plays cards on the computer and does puzzles..watches tv sometimes to. I may not do alot around the house, but if you add it all up I do more work than her. My brother even said that when he had to stay home for a week from school for something HE did more work than her, and I can say that hes probably right.

I'm basically the anger dump for my family, whenever someones angry they take it out on me. When my brother Mike's annoyed he calls me an emo bitch. when Robs annoyed he yells at me (i wished him yesterday on the phone to get better and he started yelling at me because I said "well obviously your prtty sick..i hope you fel better" then hes like "Well no SHIT im sick! I hope I get better to!"). When my parenst are annoyed they yell at me and insult me, and I know thats its just me getting yelled at to for no reason, bceuase if last night my parents were worried about another one of their kids going to the hospital, they would of been yelling at Mike, because he got fucking wasted in his room with his friends, went out for a smoke(my parents don't know that he smokes when he drinks though), came back in, then left for a concert. My parenst were at the hospital when he smoked but they new about the drinking and the concert.... So I get yelled at when I eat spaggetti but when my brother gets drunk and passes out for hours its no big deal! It just shows who the favourites are in my family!

K thats enough ranting for now, its almost the end of 1st period. I just needed to get that stuff off my chest...

- Kristal