Especially when I'm playing an MMO online. (zOMG from gaiaonline.com)

I'm trying to defeat these monsters and it's so laggy I get killed without even having a chance to fight back.

Fuck you, you stupid computer. You overheat with 30 minutes of surfing the internet, or just 10 minutes of playing that.

And thus this is the start of my actual "update".

I'll hopefully have a computer by Christmas. I'm getting a second job soon and that should really help speed things along. I'm most likely getting a job at a subway. I'm a shoe-in due to the fact both my brothers work at different subways, and if I get hired I'll be working at a different one than both of them. Haha. (I feel like such a mooch-I got my library job because of Mike and I'll get subway from both my brothers D

Don't get me wrong, the library is good, but even during the summer I only work 3 days a week for 10 hours a week: two days for 3 hours and one for 4. And during the school year it's one evening shift (4 hours) and one weekend morning shift (3-4 hours). So obviously in order for me to save up for a laptop by Christamas I would need to save every penny, which, trust me, wouldn't happen. So I need to get another job, and it should fit in pretty good.

Speaking about money, some events are coming up in which I'll be spending the last of my money on: the street fair, and kita kon. The street fair is first: it's in 3 days, and my library is selling books and a bunch of other shops are selling things as well. Luckily I don't have to work during the street fair, aha. I've caught the shopping bug lately and god knows I'll be buying at least a few items. I'm actually looking forward to that, however.

The second event is Kita Kon (anime convention). Right away, I have to spend 20 dollars just to be registered, and thats about 1/4 of the money I have in my bank account (blame the shopping bug, aha). However, I haven't read alot of anime, and I'm not big into buying books, so I shouldn't spend that much. (Why BUY books when I can just take them out for free at work? And even if none of the libraries in T-bay have them, I can always do inter-library loans, or just read manga off the internet for free!).

I figure since all I have is $80, I'll have a cap of $40 for the street fair, and whatever is left over will be used for Kita Kon. Whatever is left over will be added to my next expenses.

(Random note: Isnt it ironic that I started out this blog talking about SAVING money and in the last few paragraphs I just talked about how I'm going to spend my last $80? I'm a confusing person, but hopefully below should explain it a little)

I'll have my next paycheck just before school starts (september 1) and I'm thinking about getting my hair done professionally. This is kinda a big deal to me since I haven't gone to a salon since the 9th grade (going into grade 12 now) but mainly because of my trichotillomania. My bald spots are worse since I've posted the last pic, But I'm thinking I would stop pulling so much if I liked my hair a little more. I used to have black hair, but I bleached it in april, so my hair from the crown. goes:

 roots (dark)

-blonde

-light brown

-medium brown

and in some spots its still black.

It looks very nice when I first did it, but now it looks gross. I absolutely hate almost everything about my hair (its thin, bald spots, limp...) and this shitty colour isn't helping. I'm hoping to get it back to my natural colour, but I'm NOT  getting it cut. I'm going to make that clear to whoever does my hair, since it's taken me a year and a half to grow less than a foot.

I'm just hoping the hairdresser is very good (had a friend who got a very bad colour treatment last year) and understanding.

Anyways I've bored the crap out of anyone who has read this far, so I'm going to leave it at that for now. Byes for now.

-Kristal St. Jean