"Love makes us act like we are fools.Throw our lives away, for one happy day!" -Moulin Rouge

...And so now it's time for me to blog!

 

How is it half way through September already? I guess when one daydreams like me time gets away from you...

 

Schools been...well...school. I've gotten back into my old ways of procrastination and I've already fucked up a couple quizzes and am probably at least a week behind. Good fucking job, Kristal...

 

But I guess its better to have my "wake up call" now than a month or so from now. If I really kick my ass into gear I can get things done. I talked to my counselor about my laziness at school (among another things…I will get into that later in the blog) and she gave me some great advice. She said to stop thinking in the past and live "here and now" and that thought has been swimming around in my head since yesterday when she said it. It's so very true...I daydream and worry a ridiculous amount, and it really does prevent me from doing my schoolwork, because I end up thinking my daydreams and reflecting on the past for hours on end is more important than work. I literally make up scenarios in my head about things I have done/may do in the future and think about what my friends and family will do if they find out, and I do that several hours a day everyday. Its fun to do but its becoming a real interference with my priorities.

 

I think I'm going to take her advice and try to plan out my priorities a few days at a time. When I mean, “plan” though, I do not mean "At 6:30 I have to do ____, at 7:00 I have to do ____" because that will just be too structured for me-I like to be spontaneous. What I mean by planning is that "I have to do ___, ___ and ____ today". I think that will work much better for me.

 

 

 

My counselor also gave me some play dough and its really been helping with my trichotillomania. In the past 48 hours I have only pulled out 1 eyelash (No head hair!). It keeps my left hand busy and therefore impossible for me to pull. It’s amazing what a difference something so simple can make.

 

 

Anyways, I better stop this procrastination and do my lab (hopefully D. I'll try posting with new trich pics soon... Just a warning though, my bald spots have gotten pretty bad...*sigh*.

 

-Kristal