"Love makes us act like we are fools.Throw our lives away, for one happy day!" -Moulin Rouge

I have no right to complain about anything.

 

I have it so good. I'm a North American teenage girl who has so many opprotunities and should use them.

 

But no: I must be selfish and not do any of my shit. I'm a week or more behind in all my classes even though it's only the 3rd week of school. I really do think that they should put some less fortunate kid in my place at Westgate, because at least then the recources will be used and won't be wasted on a selfish punk like me.

 

I guess it's good that I at least realize how spoiled I am. I think about it all the time lately: For example, today Ian Tyson (the comedian, not the singer) came to our school and in his comedy/motivational speech he said "High school's hard..." and I immediately thought "No it's not. Poverty is hard. High school is just a place where spoiled brats like me come to mainly chat and maybe learn something if they can get off their lazy ass and use the opprotunity effectively."

 

However, just thinking about how lucky I am all the time doesn't justify my selfishness. I really should get up off my ass and do some work..however I know very well as soon as I'm done writing this I'm off to sleep and I will get up 20 minutes before the first bell rings at school and end up late/just about late for class.

 

Writing this all down doesn't justify my selfishness either. It just gives me a writen summary of myself (written by myself) to look back on, and maybe hit me hard a day I forget how spoiled I am.

 

*sigh*

 

-Kristal