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well today was an unusual day..i hadalmost the whole day off for a number of reasons In french i had to do work, but o well lol thats ok. In math we had a sub which i really hate because she barges in on peoples conversations and such..she makes me realy stressed and such so i didnt even really do work or take notes..but thats ok hopefully mr. pittman will be back tomorrow (but ill be at a badmonton tourney 2morrow so ill get a note from someone aha im playing singles so thatll be a challenge for me...but thats ok i love challenges aha wish me luck) lol..anyways in dance i just sat in the caf. at a table talking to friends because we had some elementary school coming to visit and we couldnt use the dance room lol..we coulda also watched fame but i couldnt hear over the noise of everyone in the caf so i just talked lol and in gym we couldnt use the gym either so we watched supersize me, which got me thinking that i really need to shape up. Im really starting to eat ALOT more for sum reason (maybe because of stress?) and its really unhealthy foods to. I REALLY want to get healthy for next year for badmonton ( maybe even other sports too??) and gym (yes, i am taking gym again in grade 10) so i dont have to be a short fat person when i grown up (lol i know im not fat rite now, thats not what i am implying im saying that if i continue like this i could have alot of problems when im older(i was just saying that for anyone who was confused about that) Lol. But i know im really improving in terms of physical endurance and such..i can actually do push ups now and i got 5 on the beep test (prob because of my asthma puffers helping me breathe)  which im pretty proud of considering i only got 3 the first time lol. I think ill make getting phisically healthy my new years resoltion for next year last years goal was a weird one.. this may sound very strange to some people but last year whenever anything went wrong i listened to music and just put myself in a much better situation with a much better life where everything was soo different..and everyday several times a day id do that..id deny my problems and do that..which is actually anxiety, and really not healthy. But the weird thing is id even put myself in a better situation even when things were good..so i was sorta trapped in this false reality to get away from my problems

weird eh?

It took me a long time but i managed to actually stop doing that in the summer because in the summer everything got really good and most of my problems disappeared that i had last year during school so i decided i didnt wanna deny my life because it was so much better in the summer and even when i went to westagte this year i didnt even start that up again, which im really proud of I cant deny life, lol

Anyways, moving away from that issue, I think that instead of eating like a whole huge bowl of chips or ice cream when i get home or whatever ill eat like carrot sticks or whatnot This year i found out i really love to eat alot more, so i think ill just switch sum of those bad foods up with good stuff lol and besides eating those kinds of foods will actually stay with u longer, and i wont feel the need to eat agaoin rite afetr i finished eating lol..i think ill actually start this tomomorrow though..the sooner the better, lol

Well anywyas im done rambling lol i have to straighten my hair and go to bed cause i have to get up early for the tournament lol. Ill let u guys know how i did afterwards lol well im going to go now and wake up tomorrow wondering y i rambled on about some of the issues in this blog bye!

-Kristal