Since its so late, I'm going to quickly give you guys an update on things:

Again, for the last few days ive stayed at home, only going out for volunteering and sometimes a walk. Today what was weird though was as i was walking home from volunteering I got caught in a thunderstorm..the thunder scared the living shit out of me...it was SO close So i started running home and when i was about 4 blocks awya from home it was pouring SO much i coudnt see because the raindrops kept on getting in my eyes..but the worst part when it started hailing. Thank God though-some lady kindly let me stand in her porch till the hail stopped..it only took less than 5 minutes, thankfully. When i got home I was soaked head to toe-I had to change ALL of my clothes. Funny though, because most of the clothes i was wearing were new, and bought with my mom yesterday (yea, i did manage to crawl out from my hole to go shopping). But it was just water, not as if any damage had been done.

Anyways tonights going to be a long night, im going to do a lot of Soul Searching (or at least thats what i like to call it). So ill be going alot of writing (not necassarily poems, but just random opinions on things) in my binder (A small three ringed binder that i previously used to keep my piano notes in has now been taken over as a "personal stuff" binder...No, i don't keep a diary...i never have been able to keep all my day-to-day thoughts in one book-i can NEVER keep up). I will try and post what i write on hear as soon as possible, but i dont know if it will be tomorrow, because i have volunteering and have to go to my cousins' birthdays party, so it will be a busy day. But ill see what i can do.

So overall im still feeling really depressed. Ive been just trying to Soul-search and obtain knowledge of things that may make this time easier for me. However, I don't know what eles i can obtain that can really help me. But, ill keep an open mind, and see what I can do.

Anyways, I better stop tryping and get on with it. Bye for now

-Kristal